I have something of "the gift" too, inherited from my aunt, who inherited it from her grandfather. It's a mixed blessing, but now I use it as a way to protect myself from others.
I agree the OG supermodels were extraordinary. I never compared myself to them as I recall a t.shirt in the 90s that read something like "there are 2 billion women in the world and only 8 of them are supermodels".
I have a similar problem, but I think my issue is I think my friendships are closer than what they are. I organise the majority of things and I do get some invites back, but they seem closer to others and do more things with then. It's hurtful and frustrating as I would love 'next level' but can't quite manage it.
As a childless gal, I completely understand that your priorities change and you won't be able to catch up as often or for as long as what you might like. I also notice that you seem to have time to catch up with your mother's group or your other friends who have children, so It would be nice if friendship could be recognised as a two way straight rather than prioritising only what suits you.
I was in this exact same situation and chose to stay in the relationship. He ended up leaving me two years later.
Not intended as a snark comment, just genuinely curious - are there long term consequences of injecting botox (chemicals?) into your body?
My colleagues who work four days per week complain constantly that they are still required to take phone calls, respond to emails or attend important meetings on their day off.