By JACQUI MCCALLUM
The day I got married I was a size 8. I’d spent the months leading up to our wedding eating lettuce, dry chicken and protein bars that tasted like coagulated newspaper.
I’d also chained myself to a treadmill every day and pec-decked till my breasts resembled stunned mandarins.
I kept telling myself that nobody gasps at a fat bride and that if I couldn’t be picture perfect on my wedding day I would have failed at life.
Dinner invitations sent me into a flat panic, I’d check out restaurant menus online to plan out the evening – if I ordered the 250g steak, I could eat half of it, ask for salad on the side with no dressing and no fries.
Then I could fill my champagne glass with sparkling water and pretend it was alcohol.
Yes, I was a barrel of laughs in the lead up to the big day, as I struggled to look nothing like the curvy girl my husband had fallen in love with.
I’ve always been a complete basket case when it comes to my weight. Growing up as the chubby daughter of a skinny dance teacher will do that to you. While my older sister always managed to stay slim, I would put on a kilo every time I glanced at a marshmallow.
Ever since I went on my first soup diet at the age of 11, photos of me have been a series of before and after pictures as my desire to be thinner has controlled every event and every day of my life. There is no middle ground with me, I either starve myself or eat everything in sight.
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I could have written this almost word for word. Well other than being a size 8 on my wedding day. I too did the excel spreadsheet & divided my goal of a 12kg weight gain over 40 weeks to see how many grams I was allowed to gain each week. I am now 33 weeks & have already gained 12kg. I do weigh in daily, I know I shouldn't but I only record it weekly. I know I will be the same with getting the weight off after bub especially since I have to be a bridesmaid 12 weeks after my due date. Thanks for sharing your storey, it's good to know we are not alone!
Weigh yourself just ONCE per week, Jacqui. The daily weigh-ins will depress you with weird fluctuations.
You want a trend of weight control and a sensible eating lifestyle.
Tell your husband to carefully place his Freddo where the sun is not visible. He's undermining your timely progress to control.