Thankyou for writing and sharing. It is bloody tough . I miss my husband everyday, the boys miss their dad . It is a stark realisation that he isn’t coming home . The person I married is no longer there . I am not the same person either . Life changes , we change . I just have to hope we can create a new normal that works for us . Living with this everyday has wide reaching effects for all of us . Never being able to work again in paid employment was the biggest blow for him. We then , as many veterans and families do , battle addictions one after the other . I wish all veterans and their families love and strength !