I can sadly relate. 4 year marriage . My parents also said that if I had doubt to cancel and they wouldn’t mind the loss of money etc … but the pride , the hope, being caught up in it … you hope it will work . Two beautiful kids … but looking back on it … I am angry that I didn’t have the strength to walk away . I remember on the day feeling fear and regret , rather than excitement . Good on Olivia for your strength !!